Not easy for me,

Im afraid i have no time to think. Why do we only have 24 hours a day?

Its not enough. Seriously. I have been in really deep thought for the past few days, thus getting nightmares everynight. Either im screaming in my dream or im crying. 

Disgusting.

I was so excited when i found out Privileged had an episode, and i still have 14.34 seconds to the end of the show and it freaking stalled. I had to watch the show twice because they debugged all of a sudden. So it had to reload.

Pshft.

And its still stalling, i think i'd watch another time. This is so annoying. I hate sec4 to the max. Seriously.

You just feel so uptight, so unaccomplished, so alone, so far away from God, so impossibly annoyed at little things, so immature, so useless, so outcasted, so different, so unloved.

And worse, so crappy because you know you can do better at certain things, but you're not, and because the grades you'll get now foretell the ones you'll get like in January 2010.

Things are so messed up, its totally impossible to fully enjoy a video without worrying if you're being too slacky and you'd fall behind. Im possible to enjoy a TV show, impossible to have a hobby, impossible to go shopping or watch a movie, impossible to do all these things that make you happy, without having a gruesome thought of October behind your head.

Why? Because there isnt enough time for studying, not to mention other things.

And that sucks, a whole lot. 

I wish i knew how to manage my time, thats something i havent learn to master in the 1.5 decades i was alive.

On a lighter note, Char told me H&M is comming to Singapore!! Yay, good affordable stuff finally! I hope they dont skyrocket the prices so ridiculously like they do in F21 here.

Can't wait!