The Last

Happy B'day Livia, Love you girl.

Though she wouldnt see it, but i'll leave it there.  So, i said i'll do all the thankyous and everything on the 31st.

I just deleted my "Thankyou" message. Dont feel very sentimental and stuff now.

Just happy that finally school is reopening.

I'll do the resolutions tomorrow.

for now, I'll show you my 2 role models for the new year.

Not because shes Blair Waldorf, no no. I like her charm, and her elegance. The way she carries herself, and the aura she has. And shes so grounded with good values. And she helps the unfortunate. (Of course shes still pretty and i want to look like her! Haha.)

The country sweetheart! Shes accpets herself for who she is, and she is also 101% grounded and shes cool. I swear. Her interviews are fantastic, Shes true and doesnt hide stuff. Love. And she wrote "Tim McGraw" in like fifteen minutes. Dedicated. I must learn. 

Alot of floating thoughts now. K, i dont want 2009 to come now. Ah whatever LA. Dont care already. Just get on with life. Last year, all i wanted was $$$$, and friendship and this year its (: (: (: (: 

Happiness. I know, shocker huh. I feel the same. Hahaha. "Change" is a very troubling word. Like how people around me change. Friends, Family. Horror, some even change, until i dont think i want people like these around me, like i dont even know them. Wierd huh. In just such a short short time. Funny.

Ok, im gonna watch Little Nonya, New year resolutions tomorrow!

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Im like watching Channel 8 and 5. Switching between both countdown whatever shiz. Yeah. And they have this message thingy at the bottom, and i saw this message to this laopo or Zhuzhuhoneybaby. I was like ROFLMAO! And then i toldZara, Oh what a  long name. I'd never let somebody call me Laopo or Zhuzhuhoneybaby. HAHAHA. K, i feel mean now.

Bummerfaz

Bloating...

Expanding...

Fine, Growing fat.

(Seriously, my weight is like. Unimaginable, Im like heavier than everyone my size or what?!)

Not cool.

Showdown

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This thing is so dead, fine, its just me and my thoughts. 

Ohwell, I cleared my wardrobe, and i threw out all the clothes i didnt want anymore, and then i brought it to my mum, and guess what she happen...

Mum: -after seeing pile of clothes- Huh?!

Me: -thinks dammit, its too much- Why?

Mum: Thats all?

Me: HUH? TOO LITTLE UH?

Mum: Haha, Yeah.

Lol. But thats cuz most of my unsuitable-going-to-salvation-army clothes are at the other house. Time to clear up that wardrobe. And the room there. 

Zara and I are having some good sister time. I was reading Xiaxue's blog and then Zara came in and she says Xiaxue is really funny, so she read it with me. I bet Xiaxue is her favourite blogger now!(She was reading it this morning again. The archives.)

Come on people, comment. If i put a tagboard will people tag?

Wait i forgot, Its me and my thoughts...

FINE, dont comment then, be that way.

I cant wait for school to start. I've open up to the sec4 must get many A1s thing already. Like its not screwing my life anymore. But still part of my life. What am i saying. K bye.

P/S: I have a new crave. Monitoring currency exchange rates. Like 1Aussie use to be 1.2SG, and now its like 1 to 1.01 or something. British Pound went down too(Irrelavant considering i dont shop online on UK stores), But, American dollar is back up to 1.45 or 1.46, SIGH. Those who went to Australia this year would have jumped for joy. 

X'mas Yo.

HI!

MERRY CHRISSY-MAS!

Im gonna be an Elf. "Carina is a handsome elf" is my facebook shoutout.

Hohoho. (<--Its a laugh)

Btw, i had a pretty fun X'mas eve, went to learning lab. CHERYL IS FINALLY BACK.

Cherrie didnt come though ): But we had a nice short lesson, and Ms Ong was being nice cuz it wuz X'mas eve. Hohoa! So,TYVM for the cookie JA. Although i havent ate it, it looks nice. And the Cute Kola from Cheryl!

And besides learning lab, i went home and played the whole day, Hoho!

Its so cold now i thought it was snowing when i woke up.

I SLEPT WITHOUT AIRCON AND A QUILT KAY. (And still felt cold)

And on the 23rd, i also did nothing. Actually i did Amath for 4 hours, then my brain was so worn out, i decided that it wuz enough work for the day, so i was telling ZQ that i can play the rest of the day! Hohoho!

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Wonderful X'mas day :] Unforgettable (Lots happen goodness!)

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Unworthy

I think i've failed miserably as a student. )':

Screwed holidays, Horrible time management, Unmotivated, Lack Perseverace and Focus. Dissapointing.

I think todays Amath test was so hard. Goodness. First paper was ok lah, the 2nd paper, i was swearing when i see the questions. Like "Shit, what is this?!" like i might just fail. /': How embarrasing. ZhiQian was so nice! She waited like quite long for me. Hahah, Until super late then she hand in her paper and sit there. TYVM :P

Ok nevermind lah, I'll just revise more i guess...

Chem is stressful, like its freaky how you cant do your homework, and you know you have no one to ask. Scary how knowledge can filter itself out of your brain :X

Ok lah, I'll just slack for the next 2 days, I mean, Its christmas right? ...

And i'll get my gears working for next year, Its a long run. Long and Energy absorbing.

I see more tears, fears and everything in between coming up. 

Facebook is freaky...

Royal Purple

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I was reading archives of Odelia's blog and i laughed until tears was like clogging my eyes. Oh shit, I didnt realise it was already 11.15 i better get back to doing homework. Sigh.. Good old lazy, no need to worry for studies days, I miss. (K lah, just maybe term 1 and 2 of 2008, not that long ago lah. Haha.)

I realise my post are so back dated. Haha.

1. Mummy got a new car, Shes so funny, she said she wanted a smaller car, and then went to buy it like 3 days later. But her car has arrived, a Honda, Red in colour.

2. I still havent gotten my school books, Gonna get later.

3. I really hope i dont have to go to school myself when school starts. Dang. Cuz its from East to West. Sad Alr.

4. Im done with Christmas Shopping :D I think we're exchanging present today! Haha.

5. I LOVE HAIRBANDS. Hairbands, headbands, same thing. 

BTW, I went to Helen and bought this arcylic clip, i hope i can use it for school. Cuz its like reflects the light, It has very nicely cut black stones on it, to reflect the light. But its black leh, totally, i dont break school rules. Ok fine i do, but my new year resolution would be not to get any more booking :] Better dont laugh, i can one ok.

Yesterday i was reading Horoscopes on Teenage Mag, then i got very worried. But then now i know that i dont have to believe in horoscope, even if it says next year result for me would be bad. Seriously got damn scared when i saw it okay. Like a car was just about to run over me. But if i cont' like how i am this holiday, yeah i'd be screwed. So i need to change.

I dont know how man, Ok, i'll chill, besides everything is in my control. I'd be fine, and God would help all of us. I think thats amazing, like he can love 2 totally different people, with totally opposite character and everything. I must be like that, Im going to be nice, generous, kind, and loving to everybody. K, i've set a character goal. But that doesnt mean agreeing with everybody, not knowing who to take sides with, even though im not sure of myself, i dont really sit on the fence, and follow whatever somebody does because i look up to that person or smth, why be someone else when you can be yourself right... Cliche lah, but still. 

I have to set study goals too, that i'd have to think abit. Of course its the standard as many A1 as possible yeah everybody wants that lah.

Now im not looking forward to next year, whalao, at first i was one lorh, But thinking of the weekly test, the fast passing months, days, terms, Scary like shiz.

Yay Jocelyn is back! ;D I think Livia is back too, Jess is away, I think Taiwan. Why all go Taiwan Siah. I remebered i like cried when i came back to SG. Taiwan is like Paradise. Shop whole day, beautiful scenery, Room service :D Haha, Seriously. Amazing. After O's i wanna go to America. But i doubt possible, Isaac has to prepare for PSLE! :O Haha. Ah dont think of after O's think of Before O's first. Gah. We're all getting old at such a fast rate, Just like a moment ago my Isaac was FIVE, not Primary Five, and i was like Young. Now im old. 

GIANT SIGH.

Some Hearts

I decided to reduce the number of songs on my playlist. And change the songs lah, to older songs.

I think my playlist is too loud, Sorry leh, I dont know how to reduce the volume. Heh. Kinda in to country music now...

Oh well. Not like me, but i like.

I feel like doing a super reflective post, But like so lazy to reflect and think, im getting hopeless, need to stop procrastinating (especially for homework and studies) and start doing. But a leopard never changes its spots. Ok stupid excuse, i jolly well change, or i'd be a failure.

Tootsie Poosie.

Hi Mortals.

This holiday has been so unfruitful. Well at least i tried to sew yesterday. I tried altering my shirt with needle and thread, it turned out like a disaster. Mum is gonna alter it for me today. Haha.

I tried to sew a scarf like thingy with the sleeves i cut out, and it looks like someone died in it.

Lol.

Yesterday, i went to buy Cosmogirl, because i saw Taylor Swift on the front page :D And i think it was originally 10$, cuz there were 2 of the same issue, one had a 10$ price tag, and another had $7.90, so i took the $7.90 one, and the guy apparently didnt know the price of the mag, so i only had to pay $7.90! Heh!

And i was reading 17 and i had a good laugh, This issue of 17 IS GOOD! Like Square scarfs are my latest craze and they had so many in the mag, and there were glittery stuff Etc. And they asked this person from the fashion industry what the "fashion new year resolution" should be, and he said : " To stop wearing Skinny Jeans!" I was laughing my butt off. TYVM! My wardrobe has no skinny jeans now. Ok maybe 1 pair, which is kinda becoming too small. Growing fat here.

Yesterday, Ms Yeo called, and then i couldnt tell it was her, cuz i dont know, i was wondering why this person who called sounded so unfamiliar to the people that would usually call me. Haha! Good thing i didnt scream at my brother just then. Because i did after i put down the phone. 

So then after i screamed at my brother i went into the room and SIGHED A BIG SIGH.

And Zara was like "What happen? Who call?"

Me: My teacher, I have test one the 23rd, TWO DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS, URGH!

Zara: Merry Christmas. Christmas Present. HAHA.

And i started sulking.

And Christmas is comming, i think im gonna die, i havent got presents for anyone! Ah! Okay, i'll do that on saturday. 

And then its Hello 2009! And guess what i still need before school starts?

1. To finish all my homework!! (That should be quite a challenge)

2. A Wallet, Clean new wallet. Ok maybe i should just clean my current one if i cant find any suitable wallet.

The bag hunt was torturous, Yes i now have a bag. Haha, and i have a pencil case which is so cute!

3. A Pretty water bottle, so i'll drink more water and have better skin condition.

4. Exercise, so i can fit my school uniform. Actually it isnt the uniform its more like the T-shirts. Because the Pinafore is still big, i wore it since sec1 No Alterations, Amazing huh :D I know.

5. Grow Hair. So it can be pulled back when school starts.  (Another gi-normous challenge)

Ok, This post is long enough to last a week. People should be thankful i post :D Seems like im the only one updating, dont worry, im not a murderer, i wont kill my blog! Lol! Bye.

Zara is going to NYGH with her friends, My mum's best friend daughter, and now its a small community wow! Next year would be a wild stressful year which will pass faster than this year.

God Bless Everyone. Amen!

I know all my post are like so no depth, but seriously, im not deep, so why post with so much depth etc. BOWRANG SHIZ. Hahaha, Okay i'll do all the new year reso stuff soon, maybe like on 31st december. Hahaha!

...

Yawn.

All I Wanted

A sturdy rock wouldnt provide security. Without the strength to hold on to it, one would still fall.

Im falling.

Tagboard is up. Be happy Jesslyn!

I'd still love comments though.

Nincompoop.

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Jess! We need to go recess together with Jocelyn and Livia ok. If recess in sec4 exist. Haha. Love youz. We're celebrating christmas together right? Or post christmas. Ah, same. Haha (: You can comment at my blog, cuz i didnt see the tag at Emmeline's blog until today. Ok fine, for your sake i will put a tagboard back, soon ok soon. I like my commenting thingy. Lol!

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Privileged is also gone.

I have to watch the nonya show, and the love blossoms 2 now.

Oh oh, I have Wild Child on DVD and HSM3 and Sisters of the Travelling Pants and Another Cinderella Story(Selena Gomez :D) and Uptown Girls!

WildChild has GOOD quality + subtitles, HSM3 is pretty much screwed but hooha, i dont care. The rest i havent watched.

Goodbye.

Plummeting

Im back.

The trip too sunway lagoon/KL was good. Three whole days of awesomeness.

Like "SG enlarged" seriously.

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This episode of GG is so depressing. Poor Chuck, poor Blair, poor Serena, poor Dan, poor Aaron, poor Rufus, poor Lily, poor Bart... Since when did the Upper East Side get poor. Lol!

And cowcrap, the next episode is on Jan 5th! Kill me. 90210 is comming back next year too, omg. I think im gonna cry again.  Privileged better not go.

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I saw Mrs Lee's mail, I love you Mrs Lee! I cant wait for you to get back, I hope everything will go fine, God bless you (:

Picture-fool-you

Just finished sending the 100 photos to the girls. Acually there are 3 missing, so its 97. But yeah. 

Its these 3.

  

Met S and C at 12. Went to bugis street to find white skinnys apparently to no avail, because miss fussy pansy wanted cheap and good material. So yeah. Where to find? And then we went to Citylink for Sakae, Sheryl's treat, and then to Marina Sq to draw money, and we walked for so long to find the ATM machine. Then back down to Haji lane, and then we walked and walked and ended up at starbucks some where. Haha. I now have many blisters

               

   

And the photo of the day...

I make a fantastic nerd.

(Click to enlarge all photos)

Okay, done. I still have alot of photos, but these are the few. Anyway, yesterday was a shocky day. Incident1: On our way to bugis some guy suddenly jumped infront of us and wanted to do a survey, gave me a shock of my life, but he went to ask Sheryl since she was standing in the middle, so i walked away. 

Incident 2: At Haji Lane, some guy which looked a little high, suddenly jumped out and said "Sheesha?" and gave me a shock of my life. Ew, why would i go for sheesha, i hate ciggarettes to begin with.

And along haji lane, the cars kept passing, so it was kinda scary, cuz one moment nothing is behind you, next a car is. Freaky.

Okay. So since Sheryl and Char wanted photo credits, everyphoto that you see whos missing, is whos taking. Haha. D60 makes a good pet!

My nightmares/bad dreams are getting more and more frequent. To be exact, almost every night. And last night's Trumps all the bad dreams, even the ones where i dream i was being killed by ghost at night, Last night one trumps. It seemed so real. And i was in tears 3/4 of the dream. In the morning my eyes felt like i just cried buckets. 

And interestingly, none of it was related to studies. Ok a little part was thought. Small part.

Bye y'all wont be blogging for the next 3 to 4 days.

Flying Colours

{removed due to lack of coolness}

Anyway, i had fun with Sheryl and Char today, I hope Sherilyn enjoys Japan.

Will blog abt today tomorrow. Bye.

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Quiz
Starting Time: 8.57AM
Sister(s): Zara, 12.
Brother(s): Isaac, 10. (Though i keep forgetting and telling people he is 7! Haha.)
Where you live: Serangoon/ToaPayoh (Actually, i have many houses that i stay equal hrs in. Those two places are where my beds are)
Favourite Drinks: Water?
Favourite Breakfast: Sausage and Eggsss+ Hashbrown

Have you ever:
Been on a plane: Yeah! My fav. mode of transport.
Swam in an ocean: No, Sea have lah.
Fallen asleep in school: I think once or twice.
Broken someone's heart: Maybe.
Fell off your chair: Hahah, yeah!
Waited for someone to call: Yeah. Some people just never do call, Im guilty of that too lah!
Saved Emails: Mrs Lee's. But i dont usually empty my inbox.

Do you ever had:
Chicken Pox: No! My mum, sister, brother all havent!
Sore Throat: Yes, Many times.
Stiches: Nope.
Broken Nose: Oh no no, please dont happen!

Who was the last person:
You danced with: EHHHH, Zara, we always play music and dance like goofs.
That made you smile: Person? Technically its Odelia's blog, so i guess Odelia.
You yelled at: I cannot remember, quite long ago.

Today did you:
Kiss anyone: Nope.
Talk to an ex: Nope. I have no ex lah, no ex. Lol!
Miss someone: Of course!
Eat: Yeah! I just ate breakfast!

Do you:
Believe in love at first sight: Nope, not at all. Negative percent huh! (If theres such a thing.)
Want any children: Yeah, I want Great grand children you know! (I mean be alive to see them)
Smile often: Maybe.
Like your handwriting: Ew. No way. My handwritting is like worse than a baby's
Have any pets: Nope. All died.
Sleep with the Tv on: No, i save electricity lah! My parents will kill me if the tv is left on and im sleeping. "You think electricity bill very cheap is it?!" my dad will say.
Eat healthy: NO, kind of self explanatory right, see my fats.

What is your room like: A Room. Quite neat lah. Hahah.
Best feeling in the world: Falling in love.
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No. Only me goes on the bed.
What's under your bed: The floor.
Who do you really hate: Hate, nobody. Dislike maybe some people.
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Nope. Ok i can think of someone now. Ok i just thought of me.

Are your toenails painted: Orangeeee! (: I love orange. Haha Sheryl!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: I dont know. I think my bed is better than a five star hotel's bed!
What colour shirt are you wearing now: White.
What were you doing at 7.00pm: Watching Love Blossoms.
When did you last cried: Watching the 8pm show.
Are you friendly: Heh heh. See who lah.

Have you crawled through a window: No. Hahah.
Who was the last person you cried in front of: My sister and father.
How many people can you say you really love: Really. I dont know lah. Everyone, everyone.
Did you cry because of something someone said to you: Nope. Unless its like anger tears, i dont really care what others say to me.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely going to go to: HERE. Hahah.

5 things on my to-do list today: A little bit of Math, Bathe, Meet Sheryl and Char, Haji lane/somewhere else, Konquerors.
If I were a billionaire: Donate to charity. Like go give the poor people MYSELF. Not charity organisations or the government to embezzle.
5 of my bad points: Short attention span, Hot tempered, Often judge others, Materialistic, Rude.

Ended at: 9.15AM

Ok, byeeee.

I think theres something wrong with one of the songs on my player, if its wierd, just refresh or pause. Oh gosh, a bird(BLACK) just flew pass my window and gave me a big shock! Cuz im by my window, omg.

Shades Of Grey

The pile of homework is killing me.
Im only at EMath, and i have tons of graphs to draw. Damnit. Now i have to study for 3 tests Ok, make that 4, since there is a test for EMath. I bet there would be a test on Chem, and im gonna die. I dont know what i know and what i dont for Chem. I feel as though i just lost all my memory.

Wha lao.


Shall Update later.

White Horse

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I've been eating so much these days.

Monday i went to Raffles Town Club for food.

Tuesday to Toapayoh for Taiwan Porridge.

Today im going to Plaza Singapura for Tim Sum.

Lol!

Even breakfast is not bread + Jam/peanut butter like what i eat before school.

I had like Chee Cheong Fan on Monday, Tuesday had some glutinous rice, and today Prata. In the morning man.

Time to exercise. Sat i'll go run, ew right, yes i know. Last night i had a super wierd dream AGAIN.

And this time it was something about church and exercising.

Totally no link to me. But still. Hah.

I thought yesterday was like Monday night, instead of Tuesday, so didnt watch GG! Speechless. Shall watch tonight together with Priviledged.

My dad warned my against watching all these stuff. So i must exercise control. And they really expect me to maintain my grades. Ok lah, i expect myself to lah, Like grades = L1R5. Improve. All the marks and positions i dont really care, not that i actually did before anyway.

So yeah.

Someone help me for Matrices! I cant do qn1 in tys and qn1 in topical revision! (Not to mention the other qns like number1 alr cant do -.-)

Kay, off to bathe, bye.

My goal for this holiday and next year = Be optimistic.

And less emotional. People who think im emotionless tsk tsk. K i know its like everybody, Im good at hiding my emotions (: Only those who see me everyday/talk to me everyday will know my emotions.

So aka me and my family. And maybe odelia and J. Emmeline is too errm, blur. (Sorry i couldnt find a milder word :/ )

I didnt do much work yesterday, but its okay. 

After we went to Raffles Town Club for lunch, we headed to People's Park to buy stuff to make stuff. Haha.

Soooo, since Odelia wants to see them, photos are up, not super clear though, because the beads kind of reflect light. Or is it refract. Ok i dont care.

Point is, not super clear, and i couldnt be bothered to edit, cuz its so ma fan. Haha. 

And Odelia was so cute, she said "I thought you do those 3 year old kind!" Haha! I didnt know 3 year olds could play with beads. I thought its a choking hazard. Anywayz, Zhiqian msged us from Taiwan! I think she msged several people, and 1 msg is like 50c!

K, pictureeeees.

Angel Earrings. I wanted to give them away free/sell, to anybody who wants it, then i decided to keep it for myself. Lol, i bet there are similar ones in the market though. 

On my phone.

On Zara's Phone.

Made by Zara for her friends.

Made by me for Zara's friends

Of course she's gonna give them and say she made it, But its okay.

She wanted to give it to them for christmas, and the heart shape (which is common in all the phone chains) says "Made With LYve" cool huh.

I think my dreams are wierd. I mean, i only get "freak out!" dreams near exams or test (when i dont study) if not im generally not plagued with wierd dreams. And more worrying, i keep making silly mistakes for Amath. Whats wrong with me. I need a chill pill.

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I forgot to mention. Yesterday i was watching the 8pm show on Channel 8. The one where they help these poor people clean up their house, and i swear yesterday's episode was so heartwrenching. I watched and tears streamed down my face when the old man told his lifestory. Im not repeating it here, its not nice. But it was super heartwrenching and saddening.

I will make it my goal in life, to help all these poor people around.

Damn saddening. I have soft spot for old people ):