Countless times,

A little girl with a long ponytail was walking along a road, then she came to a crossroad.

Along one bright pretty lights dangled down the trees, along the other candies.

Knowing the both roads would lead to a bustling cosmopolitan city. Without hesitation, she chose the latter. Candies, a kid would never give up candies. Along the road she saw rabbits, deers and a unicorn. And after sometime, she forgot the other road. The other path she once used to take, the one where the bright lights would never lose their light, and she'd never lose her way. For she saw no purpose going down, she loved candies, not lights.

Once in while she'd turn back and wonder if the other road would have been a better choice. But soon forgets it when Willie Wonka's Gobstoppers hung on the next tree.

Paper Heart

These holiday is so unproductive.

Im looking forward to Gossip Girl. But to curb addiction i'll wait till Friday before i watch. Lol.

I think i must limit all my leisure to only 1. Gossip girl, 2. 90210, When it starts.

AND I SHOULD NOT WATCH ANTM CYCLE 12. Damnit. I dont know why i stupidly went to watch it. Shoot me.

Geez.

Okay. Yeah, unproductive because after i've decided what i want to complete for the day, like e.g: 4 things. I end up only doing 1, wth. And on thursday i was watching antm, my mother went like "CARINA DID YOU STUDY?" Scare the poop out of me, cuz she rarely ask me stuff like that.

And thennnn, Sheryl went smsed me something abt Amath, and reminded me the date for Amath O lvls, which i have conveniently forgotten yet again. Lol. Ok lah, i know O's start on 26october for English... AND ENDS ON 13 NOVEMBER :D

And Amath is like 30 october. YEAH. I WONDER WHATS SO SPECIAL ABOUT THE NEXT DAY.

Programmed in me already.

Pfft.

Oh yes, another thing, I realised i put on TOO MUCH weight, and all my cellulites are damn visible. Makes me damn disgusted. And theres P.E. on monday. Ok, i shall run. Lol. Was suppose to exercise during the holidays but all i've done is eat. Pizza, Dimsum, Cakes, Doughnuts, Chocolates, Soft Drinks, Macdonalds, Fried food. Yeah seriously. Im not lying. 

For the whole of next term im gonna not go recess. Or go like once a week, or Twice. LOL. Because 1 i need to lose the weight. I need my BMI to go down. It went up again. Depressing.

And another reason is because i need some money to buy somethings to make me happy :D

HAHAHA. I want to save for a bracelet from Heirloom Asia.

Bye.

"The ones that pity you, are the same ones that thank God they arent you."

I think i'll grow up to be a loser adult, with no friends, no compassion.

One whos not loved, and one who has no one to love.

Yeah, i have these deep random thoughts.

Maybe its because of my dreams, dreams where im alone crying, when the world has turned its back on me.

Im such a  loser.

Diary day. Bye.

I feel like shopping online at Forever 21.

Sheryl, Combine with me so we pay less shipping. I only want 2 or 3 items. Lol!

Temptation. The only thing holidng me back is like what shipping fees/exchange rate.

But the exchange is fine. Its like 1.52 or smth. And the stuff i want are quite cheap.

How?

Her message to the Pres.

I think Pink is  awesome.

Yeap.

Friday the 13

Holidays!

Finally, I was so looking forward to this break.

I think we all deserved it.

I love Mrs Liew. Kindest teacher in the planet, 1. does not sound like a lecturer, 2. does not pick on me. 3. Wanted to make brownies for the whole class, 4. Told us to enjoy our holidays, 5. Doesnt look down on students.

Was pretty bummed out at the last hr of school due to some things.

And had lots of fun laughing in school today. Emmeline was being so high, and we all went for recess. Lol!

Jesslyn rest well go see a doctor!

Im procrastinating yet again.

I think the only way for me to stop getting hooked on the comp is if it died.

yeah. The internet needs to be down.

Now.

I hate sec4.

Whorelady

OMFG.

I've never met such an annoying adult in my entire life.

Just now when i was at Toapayoh interchange walking from 7/11 to the 232 waiting place (Super fast.) There was this lady from MindChamps whatever it is. And she approached me, asking me wierd questions. Heres how the SUPER SLAP WORTHY convo went.

Her: Hi im from mind champs im a teacher from St andrews (WHO STARTS WITH THAT?!) are you in sec2? Sec1?

Me: No.

Her: Sec 3?

Me: Sec4.

Her: Oh have you heard abt mind champs? ...... (Started telling me what its about and i cant remember.)

Soe she talked and i missed my bus, so quite irritated already.

Her: Do you have any problems in school?

Me: Errr... No...

Her: No Problems at all (In a tone as if i have "Im Stupid" written on my forehead) And subjects you're struggling with?

Me: Errr. Chinese? (Knowing this kind of organisation/tuition is for Math/Science)

Her: Do you take History or Geography (Note how she immediately change the topic.)

Me: Geography.

Her: How do you study?

Me: Ermm.. Memorise and stuff.

Her: We usually dont encourage students to memorise because theres a lot of content when you get older.

(Wondering if i dont memorise then how i get all the content that i need to put on my exam script in my head.)

Me: Okay.

Her: So we're having this free workshop that teaches students how to study well. You want to sign up?

Me: Oh ok, I'll think abt it.

Her: Whats your mother's number? I'll like to give her a call. Im a teacher, and theres this ex principle from Rgs... (Say something else)

Then she asked for my mother's telephone number.

Me: No i dont think she wants me to give it out.

Her: Why are you so skeptical. (AT THIS POINT I WAS SUPER ANNOYED, LIKE WTH IS HER PROBLEM.) Can you tell me why your mind is so closed. Its hard to learn with a closed mind. Im a teacher and I stoop down to your level.  (STOOP DOWN TO MY LEVEL SIAH. WHA KAO. BITCH, And by the way she said im a teacher for like 10 times or smth.)

This is a wonderful opportunity im giving you and its free (She emphasized on how free it was. Like ok i understand free so, still not interested.) Is my offer not attractive enough for you. (YEAH THATS WHAT SHE SAID!)

Me: No. its not that.

Her: Then why are you so skeptical? Why dont you want to learn new things and go for this workshop. Can you give me your mother's number?

Me: Ermmm...

Her: Do you have any siblings studying? Sister or brother.

Me: Sister and brother. Why?

Her: How old are they? They might me interested in the course.

Me: They are too young and...

Her: Why are you so skeptical, your mind is so closed can is this workshop not attractive enough, it tells you how to study for your O level, and it helps students from young, Its good to start at a young age.

Me: okay...

Her: So how old are they?

Me: my sister is in sec1. my brother p5 (Cut short it didnt go like this)

Her: I will book places for you and your siblings. Whats your mother's number?

Me: Erm, my sister really has no time so i think... -Shakes head-

Her: Why are you so skeptical, Im a teacher and im still learning, there are people from NUS high and the Ex rgs principle you think you've learn everything, you think whatever you have learnt is enough, you think you're smarter than these people. You think your sister has no time but she might want to go for the course.

Me: -101% shocked and pissed to the core- No. Fine when is the course?

Her: Everyday of the holiday at 2 time slots.

Me: Ok. I'll think abt it.

Her: Can i have your mother's telephone?

Me: Erm, -rolls eyes at her then say's number-

Her: Why are you giving me this kind of face. And attitude, Im a teacher and i genuinely want to help you, why is your mind so closed, why are you so skeptical? 

Me: Im kind of like rushing for time. So...

Her: Okay, im just trying to give your a great learning opportunity....

Me: THANKS. -Walks off-

Her: Thankyou.

WHA LAO. LIKE SHE EMPHASIZE HOW SHES A TEACHER AND STUFF. SO WHAT IF YOU'RE A TEACHER?! BIG DEAL. STOP IMPOSING WHAT YOU THINK IS BENEFICIAL ON ME. I TOTALLY DETEST PEOPLE WHO IMPOSE THEIR VIEWS ON ME. 

I already said i would consider and she went on ranting i missed like what 2 buses?!

So irritating. And she even said "I will personally go down to your school you know." And im like"err ok." Like go lah, what has it got to do with me right?! And shes saying how i cant study without the workshop tips and stuff, and how skeptical i am. And she stoop down to my level. Wow, high and mighty person eh? So what if you're a teacher?! SO WHAT?! My school has so many teachers and they're pretty nice. At least they dont impose their type A views on me.

I hate it when people say "dont give me this kind of look" everytime my dad says that i fire back at him. When my mum says it, i roll my eyes and go into my room and ignore her.

I know "that attitute" is annoying, but i wouldnt show it if you didnt annoy me in the first place.

So when i reach home it was like what 3.10, DAMN LATE. considering assembly ended early, and i went straight home, then i complained to my mum, and my mum say "Next time you meet these kind of people, tell them, STOP HARRASSING ME, GET LOST. GIVE IT TO THEM, FIRE BACK" LOL!

I think my mum will scold her if she calls, Cuz shes so annoying.

RIGHT?

if you dont agree, you can go try it out yourself. Like im not interested, If its FREE and its THAT good, there should be no more places or anything.  I know after the workshop they would ask you to join the classes and what not, because they lack the people/students, think things really come free meh?! My shit.

Super angry man.

Headlines

Dakota Fanning casted as Jane for New Moon is official. 

(Im not that into sexy vampires that never grow old, but that girl is awesome, she's better than Miley Cyrus. 15 years of age and cashing in millions.)

They say Annalynne McCord would be Heidi, but then its unofficial. Just like they rumoured Vanessa Hudgens would be casted in New Moon. Please stay as a rumour. As pretty as Vannesa Hudgens is... New Moon & Her... Err...

I wonder why people claim Dakota Fanning wouldnt do a good job, as far as i know, shes pretty good for a fifteen year old. Haha.

If Annalynne McCord gets the role, im definitely watching the movie. Lol!

I wanna watch Push btw. And i feel like renting some DVDs. There something wrong with me.

All Pieced to One.

Current obsession: Cute Guitarists :D

E.g. We The Kings!

& Of course Paramore remains at top3.

Emath CA paper seems to take forever to get back to us huh.

Searching for stuff on the net, i feel the urge to splurge. Retail Addict. Lol. I need a new wallet, I need a little more clothes. I dont have the habit of wearing my clothes again and again and again. Unless its Saturday. Haha!

This morning i woke up at like 2, and im like "Wheres my mum, shes not coming in to wake me up." then 1second later "Oh right its saturday." Then 2 seconds later, I checked  the clock, and another second later "Oh man its thursday, i have school. K back to sleep." 

My sleeping hours are getting wierder lately. Like i usually get my beauty sleep. i.e. 10-2 for old people. Since im young it should be like 10-5 or something.

Lets not give too much attention to the Chris Brown and Rihanna saga, though i think Rihanna is awesome, and she'd get a new guy in like a second. And im not for guys who hit. 

Its so windy now, I think i dont need the aircon tonight, heh.

Im so tempted to chop off my hair...

The Wind, The Rain, The Song.

Speeches all intertwine,

With the mood of my heart.