Silly dandy.

I think i might just take lit in JC.

Im always saying i won't do humanities, like i'll take Math Chem Phy and Econs. but come to think of it, i think taking lit would be really fun.

I think its fun to study about love, not like stupid I love my boyfriend kind. Or oh, thanks for buying me hot chocolate, i love you.

Lol! That just insane.

I must say I love you only when i really mean it. So i don't really say "i love you" to people now.

Because love is not for fun.

You don't love somebody and the next thing do something that will hurt them. So i think its a bit wierd when people say use 'love' too freely. In BGR case.

Maybe its me being old fashion and wierd... But i will from now use 'love' only if i mean it.

But studying for literature is very... uncertain. HOW TO STUDY?! I will find out.

K bye. Lol.

Rise and Shine

God help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me x100!

PLEASEEEEEEEEE...

You are complicated.

I don't get you, really. Or you just don't want me to get you, either way, there is just a wall between us.

Painting stars in the sky

/Edit.

(rolls eyes at ______.blogspot.com) like seriously, you're wierd. REALLY WIERD. Goodness. 

I have good reasons why i like holidays and why i dont. More diary time maybe.

i neglected my diary for a long time. sucky penmanship maybeee...

/

There was a crow at my window today. Scared me to death, i wanted to cry.

Sheryl called me ugly. And a dog.

Charmaine called me a puppy, which is cute = ugly but adorable.

Im insulted.

They owe me. I was suppose to be in depression.

Im ugly. T.T

I will go for plastic when i grow up. :D Heehee.

And i will stay on my own soon. Rent a house when i get a stable job and pay. I hate to talk abt the future because i totally have no idea what i want.

Its really scary.

And most people think i really have things like together and im like fine and everything, but im like one of the few people that would totally fail in life and not live up to potential or like other people's expectation. And like not do things that i will enjoy and love to do. Sucks, but thats how i see myself and my life.

Being really honest here. sucks when no one really understands or like bothers to sympathise.

But thats ok.

Siow and Char will totally sympathise i know. Hahahaha. rightttt....

Sherilyn is too busy with Prelims.

Im considering not aiming for top5 JCs anymore. Like i should be more realistic. Like at this rate im going, seriously, will i even make it to TJ. Like i must really check myself constantly and ask myself the same questions. Like why after exams i never get the sure feeling of, good i nailed this paper, i think i'll do okay. No, its never this feeling. Maybe i should not ever expect good results, so when good results come it would be a pleasant surprise.

But its really a  shit feeling when you're like waiting for results because there is always the possibility that everything can parachute down and you're like totally screwed up. Its like a sickness im suffering with. I cannot believe having to feel like "crap i think i totally screwed the paper" after o levels. I will cry my eyes out for the next three months.

Ok whatever i will like delete this sometime soon, and reflect more on stuff.

Think about things, what i want out of my life what i love doing, what im good at doing, and figure something out. 16 is not young anymore. Technically im 15. This makes me feel  a bit better though. Haha.

H1N1 ):

142 CASES.

TLL has a case, monday class sec1. I have flu. I think. My nose is kind of runny and my throat a bit wierd. Im hoping i dont end up with fever. Pray pray.

But drinking a lot of water now, so feel slightly better. Maybe its the late hours and the eat sleep eat sleep. Unhealty lifestyle etc. Hmm.

BTW, I WANT SCHOOL.

IM NOT SPREADING OR VOTING OR JOINING ANYTHING TO STOP SCHOOL FROM RESUMING NEXT WEEK. I EVEN WANT SCHOOL NOW.

Are you crazy people?! Check your schedule and all the topics we have not covered for school. One more week? Dont tell me Elearning, e learning is of no use btw. So yes. School.

I want school.

Ready for those flashing lights

Im shocked.

Lady Gaga's Lovegame was on the radio, and my 8 year old cousin started singing. Not the chorus. THE STARTING. LIKE "Lets have some fun this beat is sick, i wanna take a ride on your disco stick" I was like. Oh my....

So to confirm i asked her "What is this song?" And she said "Love game, lady gaga" Wow.

I've only heard love game once, i can't even sing the chorus totally correctly. Lol.

Anyone knows the difference between a dumper and an excavator? My 2 and a half year old cousin told me the difference. Im ashamed.

The first to fall and the last to know

I predict sleepless nights when school reopens.

Especially wednesdays ): Goodness. I think im going to really hate wednesdays. All the rush. Geez.

Im falling sick :/ Again. Im really prone to have slight flu... :O

BAD DAY TODAY, WOKE UP WAY TOO LATE. Was like almost 11 when i woke up, got a shock of my life... All through out the week i sleep at like 1 plus, but wake up at 9plus all the time. I always am able to catch RR on tv. While eating breakfast.

But i woke up so late today. I still feel energetic...

Okay, i have nothing much to say, colour friday was good :]

I want a white Jacket and a denim jacket and a cropped top.

I want to eat pizza toast. Im sick of pizza hut. I've been eating too much of pizzahut.

Even the Man in the Moon disappeared

I dont want to judge you, but you and your freaking stupid assumptions piss the shit out of  me.

Like go entertain yourself and stop your nonsensical thoughts from flooding your mind.

I will not buy 17 magazine again. I got tricked this month again. And 17 magazine is really boring me now. At least I got a shock when i read the letters other people send in. Lol!

Who knew she could write so well and has such outstanding vocabulary...

Meeting Siow for a movie later and then Colour Friday in church. Yeap.

I think i won't be attending YCG when school reopens. Like, IR until 4.30 cab to TLL. And then if i go YCG it would be straight after TLL to YCG. And reach home at 10. Homework how? So.. cannot i guess...

 

10 weeks of rushing around. 

WHY CANT THEY PUT SOMETHING THAT ENDS AT LIKE 4 ON WEDNESDAYS...

Nevermind. I will cab there and stay back later... My money ): Must not buy magazines, Must not eat expensive lunch, Must not eat more than $2 for recess. Okay. Like that i'll have money. 40bucks a month on cab fares. I feel like fainting now.

Now I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection.

Exam blues again.

Deleted post on prelims stuff.

I decided on smth. I hate to make this kind of decisions. Thats why i hate holidays.

Bye y'all.

Why she looks so sad in photographs

I think Secondhand Serenade and FM Static has really good song.

I love Pretend and Moment of Truth.

And maybe Nice Piece of Art and Goodbye. Don't listen to Goodbye when you're sad okay you'll cry. But if you're sad because like you can't solve a problem (like me) go ahead and listen.

Lol!!

Will blog later.

I...

Im Miley-fied. I learnt Hoedown Throwdown dance in like what 5 minutes.

After watching the video. :O

I think Plurk is fun! Because FB is boring.

but i might go back to FB soon.

I miss daddy. He looks Charcoal now. Lol. 

Im unproductive. Principal says "Study 4-5 hours a day. Thats actually quite little, other top schools tell their students to study 7 hours a day minimum" 

This makes me feel useless. I wonder why im so not focused. And so drawned to the computer. And bother to visit blogs that are never updated -.-

Odelia is a good kid. Because she updates her blog. But she doesn't reply tags. Not so good anymore.

Sigh...

I want to read a book. A deep life changing book... Where to find? I know. Borders -.-

Lol. I went to Vivo yesterday. I like Vivo. I wanted to get this pretty pink bag. But it was like 272 or smth. So my mum said no. Also there was a skull on it. A small one. So i didnt buy.

I like Gap. Its my favourite brand now. Gap models are cool.

I want Aldo Shoes. I wore sneakers Ystd. so i couldnt buy any shoes. 

I Love Vivo. And Suntec City.

Mango Sale is on :D :D

I want David and Goliath Tees.

WHEN IS H&M COMING TO SINGAPORE.

I need to go to Tampines 1 dress shop.

Whatever you people

I want more time.

Active Volcano.

GRRRRR.

IM ANGRY WITH EVERYONE NOW.

PFFFFT.

GRRRRR.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF...EELING LONELY.

SHALL NOT SWEAR.

For Odelia

My favourite song for now is crazier. I can listen to it the whole day. Lol!

Ok bye. I have 101 post :D

Happy already.

Sorry being wierd all the time :}

i should post short short stuff on plurk from now on :] 

Check ->

:D/:@

Fine i shan't close my blog.

I will entertain myself. Plurky!

I think plurk is better than twitter. Although i only have 1 friend = Char.

AND I HAVE TO USE CARB AS MY NAME. = FATS = CARB.

IM FAT. REALLY. OK i will not get started on this was so  irritated and upset whole of yesterday after i went to buy shorts, don't get my body seriously, REALLY. 

IM NOT SKINNY, I JUST DONT SHOW MY FATS. SERIOUSLY. I BET IM LARGER PANT SIZE THAN YOU ALL SKINNY THINGYS.

I think im larger than my mum. No wonder she wanted me to take like a smaller size, UNFORTUNATELY I CANT FIT. I was really really shocked. REALLY SHOCKED yesterday.

thats why i was so upset.

so so so upset.

really really shocked.

 

GRRRRR.

I gain fats in all the wrong places. Its annoying. Whats worse, me is short. Better check my weight soon another fatal shock coming.

Really irritated with myself.

-depressed-

:@

STUPID PEOPLE!

BLOGGER STRIKE

Blogging = Boring.

Reading other blogs = No Updates = BORING.

Waiting for NYLON MAG = SUPER BORING...

Facebook = BORNG x100 

So, i deactivated my facebook.

WHAT TO DO?!

Mail me pictures from friday when theres time.

GOOD BYE YOU. YOU YOU YOU.

GRR.

Gonna deactivate this blog in 2 days.

More than conversations

You make me feel like a complete work of art
when I'm just falling apart
A really nice piece of art


I want to paint. Abstract art. By the beach. With my bestfriends.

And give it to each other. In a frame. With a little note.

(Edit)

I feel like wearing T-shirt and shorts everywhere i go now. Its too troublesome to decide what to wear.

Can i wear T-shirt and shorts to church, To tuition, To shop, To wherever. Pfft.

Forever 10.

Mood: ^_^

Location: Savannah Condopark/Emm's Hse.

We had tons of fun today.

After SPA went to watch HM with Jocelyn, Cheryl, Adeline, Jiayi, Sharon. Met ZQ, Amanda.

Went to Simei. Shopped for food.

BBQ, Pool.

Pictures, Barbarians, "I have never...", Truth or dare, Teachers, Friends, Talking till 10plus.

Shared cab with Adeline, Home.

Yeah, its one of the best outings ever. The best would be after O lvls, where we can create memories without thinking about O lvls. Lol!

Short story

A big dark brown lizard just dashed out from the big dustbin.

I closed the door so its stuck in the cupboard.

I told my brother to catch the lizard and throw it down the big dustbin.

He said im scared in a very annoying retarded way.

I said whack the lizard.

It won't die and dont let it out of the cupboard.

Because i think lizards are disgusting.

Now the lizard is under the fridge.

I think my brother does not understand english.

What to do?

/Edit

Can't wait for tmr :] Getting all excited now. How to bring Cam? Who brng? Lol.

Better study for SPA man, i have been slacking the whole day :P

Paris Hilton's My New BFF (2) is not as nice.

Chem SPA tmr. All the best!

I think Blake Lively looks gorgeous here. *ENVY!

I love her hair!

BBQ BBQ BBQ

XXXX OOOOO.

Im holding every breath for you

Getting the better of me

Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black

Today is unproductive. Quarrelsome. Addictive. Insightful. Sucky. Fanish. Happy. Tiring. Wasted.

Yeap.

Tomorrow would be a better day :] Haha, W Party nex wk. Good me.

Okay, tired tired. I want 17mag for Katy Perry!

PICNIC PICNIC.

BBQ BBQ.

PICTURES PICTURES. I WANT A POLAROID CAM.

!!!!

I realise people don't read my facebook info page.

It actually contained most of the ans to my facebook quiz. Most. Generally.

Hahahah.

I've watched ALL the episodes of 'We Got Married'! Its damn funny, i wanted to cry when it was the last episode, damn sad.

And my brother like Kim Hyung Joon and he thinks Kim Bum is handsome! AWESOMEEEE!

We were talking about first impressions today.

Sheryl says i give people a bad first impression she quotes her friend "That girl looks like from american high school the popular unfriendly kind."

OMG. IM NOT LIKE THAT. Im not popular and im so friendly ok! Lol.

Charmaine says im scary. AND SHERILYN AGREED WITH HER. GRR.

IM FRIENDLY AND NICE CAN! BETTER BELIEVE.

Last to know romeo

Im tired.

Im distracted.

Im delusional.

Mock SPA was okay.

I've spent to much time here.

I shouldn't sleep tonight.

Eating is sucha hassle.

Bye.

I SHOULD TOTALLY TWITTER.

Minute.

Some people just know how to bring out the best in others.

Who are you to judge me or my religion whatever you think you are. Weather you know it or you're subconsciously doing it, like hello my dad doesn't even judge me and he hates me to be a christian.

Curse you.

Shall not use "damn" anymore. I will refrain from swearing and getting angry because of useless people. 

I was very angry today.

Bloody angry.

Lovesongs from our Childhood

Did my heart love till now? Forswear it sight, 
For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night. 

I got scolded today.

I did my english homework.

My results are ok this term. 

Im worried for next term.

Im worried for O's.

I want to go to a good JC.

I wish i knew how to do well for English, really, if only someone can guarantee my O lvl results.

Nervous laughter.

I can get that after my O's, i just cant wait of O's to be over. Like seriously i can go out on dates, go shopping, do my nails, read shallow books, watch chick flicks, watch gossip girl season1 and season2 straight, learn an instrument (maybe the harp? :D) etc. etc. etc. and not feel guilty.

dont sleep for 24 hours, be stupid. Burn my books. Yeah, paint and paint and paint everyday.

Lol! And take silly photos, sigh.

Im yearning for something so near yet so far. I wish i had a passion.

Ok, im being stupid now, time do go back to doing english. I CANT FIND MY OTHER NAT GEO. HOW TO DO SPEECH TMR?

I FEEL SHALLOW AGAIN.

IM AN IDIOT SOMETIMES.

I think im getting on your nerves. K, i'll stop.

Im on Aldoshoes.com

I suddenly love aldo! Even though they sell beautiful 6-inch stilettos that are kind of dangerous and hard to walk in and they get stuck in soil, break easy, trap in drain gates thingy.

Lol.

In a box

I decided to delete my previous post because its bursts the bubble that young innocent children live in.

That this world is such a perfect place where you can chase your dreams.

Yeah if you have to money. If you dare to take risk and if you don't live in singapore for all your life.

Oh and if God blesses you 100 times more than most people get. Yeah.

Be idealistic, live and be happy in your perfect little world.

Know why im such a cynic to love to dreams and all, because mine kind of got crushed.

You won't get it unless you see it for yourself.

Thats the thing. The time your bubble bursts, is the time you wake up from your dream, therefore the dreams don't exist anymore.

!

I know i killed my blog, but i have a sudden urge to say smth!

OMG I WAS WATCHING GIRLS OUT LOUD AND ITS SO EMBARRASSING, as in for singaporeans.

I was watching the marriage proposal episode and people a.k.a old men adult men whatever actually think the HDB proposal is the best way. I feel disgusted.

Its vile.

I cannot believe if someone actually asks me "Do you want to get a flat together?!"

Freaking sleazy i swear. Seriously.

Even Channel 8 Dramas dont have people proposing with "Lets buy a flat!?" And OMG, FLAT. SERIOUSLY FLAT. Can't even say "Lets buy a condo" its "Lets buy a flat?!"

I dont care if it offends people, its the wrong way to propose. Im not even going to say "no offense".

What the hell is wrong with male species.  

Goodnessss.

I want a double chocolate frappe.

Im growing fat.

Its 9.40am, i've been here for 2 hours  I only slept frigging 7 hrs plus. Not good.

Singing her heart out

My brother is attempting to sing a korean song from Boys Over Flowers after watching it with me on saturday. A little disturbing, he just repeats the same 2 lines over and over though.

Lol!

I need shoes, like 10 new pairs. Haha. Yeah the time i really get down to buying 10 new pairs would most probably like i dont know, november. 

1. Im lazy to get out of my house to shop.

2. I dont shop online, its dangerous for shoes.

3. I'd rather spent my time at home getting fat than scouting orchard road... Which im not very proud of. 

Still, xxx shopping!

I dont want to use blogger anymore. Hmm...

I've been saying this like forever.

And im wasting time. Should be doing something more productive.

Im done with Sundays at Tiffany's, gonna read The Gift from Cheryl. 

I feel like getting a black heart tattoo. Lol, i think its cool. 

But then again, im just saying, cuz once i get a tattoo all the people i know will disown me. Lol! For SURE.

Oh yes i forgot.

Actually, i dont hate chinese tuition, because i hate chinese. In fact i dont hate chinese. I just spend too much time wondering why i can never do well, maybe its in born, since i dont remember any one time i did well for chinese since i dont know, primary 1. Or eve Kindergarten learning ting xie was never easy. And another thing, i always feel the stupidest in chinese tuition. The teacher always asks me what JC i want to go to, and i always reply anything. See my marks how. And she always laugh and the other people i chinese tuition will say i want to go to VJ la NJ lah, whatever la. After all, i am the stupidest there. And in their eyes im the CMI type.  Even in learning lab. sometimes, just sometimes i feel like im the stupidest there, i know what its like to feel stupid. Because i get the feeling everyweek, or even everyday, since im kind of not the brightest in my family.

Oh well.

Ok im done complaining! Haha, Yeah i just choose to ignore the feeling of stupidity, why should i let it get to me?

10% off miss selfridge products for me! Gooodie! I feel like heading down to WingTai fact to see if there is warehouse sale there. I miss Fortune Park, it was like BESIDE wing tai. And Fortune Park was big. Compared to my 2 current houses. Old times, Bad times, Good times. I don't enjoy reminiscing. It makes me seem so helpless emo, and weak. Which i hate.