Candle lighted streets

We could frolick in the medows and gather flowers

with the sunset as our backdrop

The internet decided to crash and not work wireless, so only 1 computer has excess to it. 

Bad.

I think all my shows ended. Wow, i think 90210 ended, or they skipped a week, im not sure.

I need another source of entertainment this June. 

Im going on fine with Sunday's at Tiffanys. I think i'd finish it by like monday or tuesday.

And i can head to San bookshop for more.

I shake my head at random thoughts, and brush them aside.

I need an imaginary friend. But that would scare the shit outta everyone. Too many secrets, way too many.

Trauma

This is how i feel now. Nauseous. I just checked the calender, I feel like fainting. OMG.

WHEN IS OUR PRELIMS? I know like MYE is just over, but i realise to study everything and master EVERYTHING by like august is almost impossible!

There is Sec 3 and Sec4 work, for like GEOG, LIT, SS?! How to rmb all the SEQ Info, All the Geog stuff, Examples for Lorms, measures, etc. etc. Oh my goodness.

I wonder why we have to take humanities. And our lit is really slow, i really hope Mrs Loe pulls us all back for like 1 week during June. Like 3rd week of June 2h everyday like Miss Yeo the other time, because its frightening how we are only AT CHAPTER 17. AND WE HAVE 31 CHAPTERS. 

Im not talking nonsense, because we have 2 textbook for Geog and SS to remember, and SS practically must rmb the whole book. So... 

Die.

Ok, im done freaking. Am calmer now.

Silver Cocolate

Mrs Liew's brownies are gooooooood! Yum.

Growing immensely fast sideways due to indulgence is sugar.

Gonna climb the mountain, And look the eagle in the eye 
I won't let fear clip my wings and tell me how high I can fly

   

i want a dress, a beautiful gown, not to wear it but to admire its beauty. Taylor Swift's got the BEST dresses of the century.

Miricale

How wonderful, how beautiful.

I'll be closer, closer to you.

You're perfect, i believe in perfect, because i believe in you.

Because you make me see perfect.

I hope everyone else sees perfect too.

You pick me up when I am down and on my own
You hold my hand and lead me on, Into Your plans

For me, for him, for her, for all.

Grabbed from Yingbin's

Spell your name with songs

C: Candles

A: All American Girl

R: Right next to you

I: Its not over

N: Naturally

A: All Again For You

The shoes you wore today: School Shoes, Slipeprs

Weakness: 

Fears: Birds, Totally black cats/dogs/animals

Perfect Pizza: One with cheese and bacon and ham and chicken and mushroom and more cheese and is hot.

Goal you'd like to acheive: L1r5 <8

Best Feature: Toe Nails

Bedtime: Depends. Usually its 10-11

Most Missed Memory: Quite a lot.

This or That:

Pepsi / Coke: Lol! Neither. KIM BUM.

McDonalds / Burger King: Burger King.

Adidas / Nike: EW, i dont like both. Nike i guess?

Lipton Ice Tea / Nestea: Lipton.

Chocolate / Vanilla: Vanilla Chocolate

Cappuccino / Coffee: Cappuccino. 

Do you...

Smoke: No ew.

Curse: At times. Guilty as charged, heh.

Sing: In the shower :]

Dance: Sometimes.

Take a shower everyday: Yes of course!!

Want to go to college: Obviously.

Like(d) high school: So far, okay.

Want to get married: Now, yes, 2 hrs later, maybe no. Lol!

Get motion sickness: Sometimes if the ride is too jerky and im reading.

Think you're a health freak: Nope.

Get along with your parents: Define get along, i think im pretty fine with them.

In the past month...

Gone to the mall: Try everyweek.

Eaten an entire box or oreos: Never.

Eaten sushi: i dont think so.

Been on stage: Nope.

Gone skating: Not even in the past year! How sad right.

Made homemade cookies: The last time i baked was during home ec in sec1.

Gone skinny dipping: No.

What you want...

Age you hope to be married: 25-28

Number of children: 2

Describe your dream wedding: That would take a whole page. But there would be a pale peach dress, A whole lot of white champagne, good music, in a garden with a lot of flowers, and a super cute and hot groom.

What country would you most like to visit: Korea/Paris. Its a dilema.

In the opposite sex:

Best eye colour: Brown

Best hair colour: Black/dark brown

Short hair or long hair: Short with fringe :D

Who were you with yesterday: The same people i was with today.

Who woke you up this morning: Mum.

Where are you: My bedroom.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day: I really want it to, even though it just might not be.

Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat: Nope.

Honestly, do you like anyone: Yeah! a few actually.

Honestly, does anyone like you: I hope so, i dont want people to not like me. Lol. "No one likes me" sounds quites sad.

Anger...

What do you do when you're mad: It starts with a black face, then i ignore eveyone, then i curse, and shout at people.

Whats the worst thing you've done when you were mad: Threaten my sister with a scissors.

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad: yeah.

Do you swear when you're mad: haha, a lot ):

Crying...

When was the last time you actually cried: Actually cried? i dont remember.

Ever cried yourself to sleep: Uh huh.

Do certain songs make you cry: Not really.

What usually makes you cry: Old people, young children.

Happy...

Are you usually a happy person: i want to be.

What makes you the happiest: Miracles 

When people say they think you are pretty, do you get happy: I dont get "hey you are pretty" very often, so no.

Hey Monday

Blow the candles out looks like a solo tonight

I need to be deeper, im such a shallow person...

Ways to be deeper 101:

1. Read deeper stuff! -.- Like nat geo/books that teach ways of life :/

2. Watch BBC

3. CUT gossip girl

4. Participate in volunteer work etc.

5. Pray for wisdom.

Out of 5, i can only do 1. :O 

My new ambition is to deal with flowers, like flower arrangement. Its like bringing out the beauty in a beauty. What am i saying, tahda, sign of shallowness.

I want a white rose corsage.

Your face will be my wallpaper

Imac has this wierd habit of loading youtube slowly at night.

In the morning everything loads in a split second. Geez.

K, off to read my chick book and then to sleep.

:O

They are damn funny i swear!

2 lovers

I feel stalkerish. 

I love Midnight IM sessions, I wonder if we should have a Midnight picnic sometime.

Getting permission should be the hardest.

Add to the "Things to do after O lvl list!"

I have free recess this Monday :) My display name has not change.

-XO.

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

I know im not a Miley fan but this song is meaningful.

Im done with BOF, its an awesome show, and Kim Bum is damn cute, cuter than all the hollywood starlets! :D Junpyo is good looking too. Makes me sad that all we have are i quote Jocelyn "HDB guys" Jandi is a HDB girl, so thats fine. I don't like living in HDB by the way. 

I think i'll migrate when im older. Im more and more sure. 

Or I can be a traveller, i want to explore this beautiful world God gave us, i don't want to be a workaholic. I doubt i want a family now.

Or i'll just be a typical singaporean, with minimum accomplishments in love, in life. HDB proposals LOL. like fore telling your marriage will fail. Funerals are held in HDB void decks. I wonder if people actually propose at the HDB void deck, that would be... hmm..

Oh boy

Family problems.

How am i to be perfect when all i see is imperfect?

Okay, i limit my complains for my family to my family and myself. Rarely do i find one that understands and is willing to listen, but thats okay.

Finale

This is the FIRST time i cried while watching gossip girl. Amazing, i was shocked when my vision blurred and tears came down, at the part where the bomb dropped and damn mother chucker refused to say he loves blair. At that point i was like DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT.

BUT THE LAST 2 MINUTES WERE LIKE THE GREATEST OF ALL! I WAS SO HAPPY SO SO SO HAPPY.

DAMN MY SISTER JUST SPOILT MY MOOD, AND I CANT DO THIS POST PROPERLY.

I HAD TO WAIT TILL LIKE 8.15PM TO WATCH GOSSIP GIRL, BECAUSE SHE HAS CCA BECAUSE HER SCHOOL IS IN BUKIT TIMAH AND NOW SHE WANTS TO USE THE COMPUTER, JUST WHEN IM ABOUT TO WATCH BOF.

Geez. AND JUST WHEN IM HAPPY ABT GOSSIP GIRL.

Still its be best season ever. And Georgina and Blair omg! Georgina and Blair! I thought it was going to be Vanessa who would expect Georgina. 

Season 3 is going to be amazing. Really. And i hope they have at least 5 seasons, i mean The OC had 5 season or was it more? Yeah.

Now babysissy has to use the computer. Bye.

Gossip

I was on Gossip Girl insider and watching one of Leighton Meester's interview.

Leighton: I usually dont go for the guy i should go for. You should go for a Dan, but i would go for a Chuck. (short pause) And i usually end up with a Nate.

Hahaha, shes so cute. Ok, im indulgence in Gossip Girl should end on Tuesday :D
Bear with it.

Lovestory

Its been pretty much just gossip girl for the whole of this week since tuesday. 

Yeah and soon i'll be bored of it. Now i cant wait for the finale, and FINALLY Chuck and Blair can be together. I think there should be another heartbreaking scene.

Blair and Nate or Blair and Chuck. B and C clearly have sparks! And chuck is the best! Haha!

Tuesday! Yes, i cannot wait.

And i wonder how season 3 will turn out. Their college years, its going to be interesting. 

They started at like Junior Year for the show, so like their high school period we saw was like 2years, junior year and senior year. And their Sophomore year was the Serena and Nate scandal. hmm. What about freshman? I think they should do a prequel!

Oh my, i saw an interview and they said the cast signed a contract of 6 years to Gossip Girl. Thats so great! Im considering reading The Caryles or smth the name is kind of hard to remember. But since Chuck turned out to be a Basstard lol, and he became GAY i didnt read Gossip Girl anymore. But after they went to college in the book, the characters have changed... So... hmm.

I HAVE CONCLUDED, FAIRYTALES/TV LOVE IS UNREALISTIC AS I ALWAYS SAY AND TELL PEOPLE TO NOT BELIEVE THEM, IM GOING TO DO OTHERWISE FROM NOW, IM GOING TO BELIEVE THEM. THAT THEY EXIST. Even thought this might lead me to 1. Migrating or 2. Not getting married at all. oh well. Hahah.

i didnt edit it, someone else did. I just ripped it off. Hahaha.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond

You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring. A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition. Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you. And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...

A diamond heart, its so true, i really want a ring like that.

I think im going to not buy Seventeen singapore anymore. Im going for a change, should i get American Seventeen, TeenVogue, Cosmogirl or Nylon? I love the pictures in Nylon Mag.

MY QUIZ

Since everybody on facebook has this how much you know about -person-  

So i decided to do one on blogger, since my friends do read my blog. I SUPPOSE.

Lol!

Here it goes, its easy, very!

1. The feature i wish to change most if i ever went for plastic is

(A) My butt

(B) My nose

(C) My eyes

(D) My lips

(E) Im afraid the surgery would fail

2. My favourite type of clothing is

(A) Flowery/Printed dresses

(B) Tank tops and Jeans

(C) T-shirts and Miniskirts

(D) Slightly above the knee causal dresses

(E) Halters and Shorts

3. I wish i had hair like

(A) Leighton Meester

(B) Jessica Stroup

(C) Taylor Swift

(D) Hayley Williams

(E) Blake Lively

4. My favourite nail polish colour is

(A) Pink

(B) Black

(C) Orange

(D) White

(E) Purple

5. If i could and would succeed my career choice would be

(A) A lawyer

(B) A designer

(C) A model/actress/celeb

(D) An ice-skater

(E) A socialite

Okay comment your ans and we see who wins :D Hahaha!

DO IT OKAY. IF I DONT GET REPLIES I WILL BE VERY SAD.

Quiz.
1. last beverage? Water. Lol.
2. last phone call? Emmeline, which was like what yesterday because i missed called her.
3. last text message? Amanda Chong.
4. last song you listened to? I honestly cannot remember, it was a song on a Chuck and Blair video.
5. last time you cried? Hmmm, briefly before the exam started. Yeah i think so.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice? Nope.
7. been cheated on? Maybe, teachers cheat feelings all the time, students all get cheated. Haha, joking.
8. kissed someone & regretted it? Hmm.
9. lost someone special? Yes, really special.
10. been depressed? HAHAHA, ALL THE TIME?
11. been drunk and threw up? No. i wouldnt drink till i get drunk, that would be an awful and embarrassing sight.
12. LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: White, Silver, Orange

HAVE YOU:
13. Made new friends? Its been a long time since i met new people.
14. Fallen out of love? Yeah.
15. Laughed until you cried? HAHAHAHA YES. Cried until i laugh too.
16. Met someone who changed you? Not yet. Unless you count God? But i've known him since young sooo...
17. Found out who your true friends were? Hopefully. And hopefully more to come (:
18. Found out someone was talking about you? YES, Shit happens. Everyone gets it. Haha.
19. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? Haha, my current friends list is pretty short, like 2 cm, so no.
20. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? LIKE EVERYONE OF THEM!?
21. How many kids do you want to have? That is if i get married, im fickle, so currently 2.
22. Do you have any pets? No, they all died.
23. Do you want to change your name? Maybe to like something from the periodic table! hahaha!
24. What did you do for your last birthday? Errr... i cannot remember, but i know what i'll be doing this year, studying, for o levels. Yeah how exciting.
25. What time did you wake up today? 8plus, nine. Late!
26. What were you doing at midnight last night? Watching 90210.
27. Name something you CANNOT wait for? Hmm, November 13.
28. Last time you saw your father? Err, Wednesday night.
29. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? My wealth state? Or maybe, my family state, i guess.
30. What are you listening to right now? msn tones due to convosation with odelia and cheryl, and another with jess.
31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Honestly, i dont think so.
32. What's getting on your nerves right now? Nothing, i cant believe im saying it.
33. Most visited webpage? YOUTUBE. YIDIO. GOOGLE. Yeah.
34. Whats your real name? Carina Bopee Chung!
35. Nicknames? Car.
36. Relationship Status? Attached with many strings and sticky tape. No lah, single.
37. Zodiac sign? ROOOOSTER.
38. Male or female or transgender? Female!
39. Elementary School? Pei Chun Public School.
40. Middle School? Tanjong Katong Girls
41. High school ? High school ends at like 18, so its half Tkgs and JC.
42. Hair color? My is black, i wish it was chocolate.
43. Long or short? Long with bouncy curls, like Blake lively.
44. Height? 157 im short, yeah.
45. Do you have a crush on someone? Nope.
46. What do you like about yourself? My.... bones. HAHAHA.
47. Piercings? Ear.
48. Tattoos? Nope, but i might get 1 in the future, if i get my parents approval.
49. Righty or lefty? RIGHTY.

FIRSTS:
50. First surgery? NO NO NEVER.
51. First piercing? 12
52. First best friend? My kindergaten friends, and my cousin. Who grew up with me since we were born. BUT NOW...
53. First sport you joined? Swimming, i hated every lesson, cried every lesson.
54. First pet? Fishes.
55. First vacation? Australia? Im not sure if i went to any earlier than that.
56. First concert? I've never been to a concert, except like churchy ones.
57. First crush? Hmm, it shall and will forever remain a secret.

RIGHT NOW:
58. Eating? nothing.
59. Drinking? nothing
60. Listening to? nothing
61. Waiting for? Gossip Girl season finale!

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? sure.
59. Want to get married? currently yes, but yesterday it was first yes than no.
60. Careers in mind? As long as im above average, have quite a bit of disposable income, and what im doing is proper.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
68. Lips or eyes? Eyes!
69. Hugs or kisses? Both like, at the right time, its the best.
70. Shorter or taller? Taller duh! im already short.
71. Older or Younger? Older!
72. Romantic or spontaneous? both. i want chuck bass.
73. Nice stomach or nice arms? BOTHHHHH!!!!
74. Sensitive or loud? Sensitive, i dont need another me.
75. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship.
77. Trouble maker or hesitant? Trouble maker. Hesitant, thats too ew.

HAVE YOU EVER:
78. Kissed a stranger? nope.
79. Drank hard liquor? Yeah like one super small sip, not a very good taste. BURNS.
80. Lost glasses/contacts? YEAH.
81. Sex on first date? No way.
82. Broke someone's heart? Maybe.
83. Had your own heart broken? Yeah.
85. Been arrested? No...
86. Turned someone down? Yes. Though im not attractive and not many people like me, i've turned at least 1 down.
87. Cried when someone died? Yes for a whole week.
88. Liked a friend that is a guy? Maybe. Though im not sure if it could be considered as a friend.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? sometimes.
90. Miracles? Of course, they are about the most beautiful thing ever.
91. Love at first sight? NO. LOVE NOT EQUALS LIKE. PEOPLE NEED TO STOP BELIEVING IN SUCH THINGS.
92. Heaven? Yes! i hope to be there someday.
93. Santa Clause? nope. but secretly i wish he was real.
95. Kiss on the first date? I wouldnt mind, 3 second kiss.
96. Angels? Yeap.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Hahaha, if its even possible, its a character from a show?!
98. Had more than one boyfriend/ girlfriend at one time? Nope.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Hahaha. yes.

TV Frenzy

The last 6 minutes is so awesome. And Matt Lanter is so cute :D

I want to embed the Gossip Girl video, But its all not allowed, geez. SO WATCH!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYvNahy90O4

I've watched it over and over and over and over for like more than 10x.

Heartbreaking. Heartwarming. Gossip Girl is the best, i cant believe theres only 1 episode left for the season.

Then i have to wait until after O levels to watch season3 even though it comes out in August. Lol!

Jia An has a longer wait. 2010! Poor girl.

More More... Just all the Chuck and Blair moments.











hgale18 has the best Gossip girl last minutes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnzZNnMNAys

This is the most touching scene.

 AND EMBEDDING IS DISABLED, GEEZ. It can go on replay in my mind.

Runaway Bride

Good Bye Cyber Space.

Diary Kid from now.

Letters to lovers, Penned thoughts.